many things to say that about. many many many. and I felt like updating too, just cuz.... sick of this musical, sick of highschool, and sick of being stuck and single. yes.

so remember that dragon I journaled about earlier? the clay one I'm making? yeah, well, i made a big mistake on that one. Ever been in a situation where you're not sure exactly why, but you think you just made a big booboo? Yeah, well, it's kinda like that. also I'm insane, so this should be entertaining for you.

every piece of art that I make I put a piece of my soul into. this dragon is no exception. sometimes I like to imagine they have personalities, or are feeling some mood, just for fun. before I stuck my dragon in the kiln for his first glazing, he was covered in gunk and looking a little heart broken. but i knew that he would be fine, the other two were, and besides, I was pretending that he was actually alive. now I completely forgot about him in the following week because of musical, and on monday, the musical sucked badly. really badly. soooooooooo...... I kinda did a few things that would, you know, help them along a bit. I didn't expect for it to work, but sometimes even just attitudes can improve a bad situation. so I surrounded the theatre with charms of my kind, positive thoughts and feelings and such. i also wrote an anchor charm down, to tie it all together, with things on it like "confidence", "competence" "strength" "determination" "luck" "memory" and such and so on (this was just my last attempt, I've never really done anything like this before and I bet most of it was jibberish. Hey! it was a childish hope I could make it all better with "magic"). Now little did I know that on the night that I planted these charms, the dragon was being fired, right above the theatre, so he too was included in these charms.
he's just a clay statue, i know that. The chips in the specialty glaze that I put on him exploded all over the kiln, but not touching any of the other clay art inside. His glaze did peculiar things, for instance his pure navy blue glaze now has a white scale pattern in it, and the other half of the specialty glaze just... ran. I've put 7 coats on some stuff, in various shades and specialty glazes, but never ever, has it ever done what it did on this dragon. he only had 3 layers, 2 in some places, and it just.... took over. it was quite spectacular. i took him out, and about a minute later he was covered in blood because I was bleeding. somehow, my finger got a small cut in it and there was some blood on his face and breast, like I got bit.
i dunno, maybe I'm entertaining myself by fantasizing that he has a soul of his own. but i think he's mad at me, for leaving him there for so long, covered in gunk. what worries me the most, is that i didn't put "kindness" in any of the charms. originally, he was the pleasing dragon, a kind, caring, giving dragon. Now he's... very predator like.

was it entertaining? do you think I'm nuts? because it's all true.